In Memory Of: Thomas L Paulin
Your Name: Marlene Ganz Paulin
Memoriam: Those we Love goes out of sight
But never goes out of our minds
If we had one Dream
It would beYesterday and You
We are not Apart
For Every Time I think Of You
You are Right here In My Heart
And there you will Always be
Your Wife
Marlene
Thursday, February 17th 2005 - 09:32:02 PM
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In Memory Of: T homas L Paulin
Your Name: Marlene Ganz Paulin
Relationship: Wife
Memoriam: Just thinking of you like always and Chris was talking about you today

I was looking at Chris school work when he was 6 and there was the Card he gave to you and it said Pop Pop you are the only Father I ever known

Now he is twenty I see him in the red and black flannel Jacket you once wore

He really likes that Jacket

The girls talk about you all the time

And how they miss you the girls are 4,9,11 now and it seems like yesterday they were babiesHow fast time goes by you have been gone now 3and a half years now

We love you and will always miss you

Your wife
Marlene
Sunday, February 6th 2005 - 08:29:49 PM
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In Memory Of: "Guido" Joseph James Guadagno
Your Name: Mike Guadagno
Relationship: Dad
Memoriam: Joe: You were the love of my life. We could talk about everything but the thing you needed most. Help. You were caring and bright. You told me you were OK and that taking you live was not an option. I'ts been 3 months now and I just can't seem to get rid of my sorrow. My plains for the future are gone without you. You were the pride of my life.
Your son Andon is doing well, he looks just like you. I have set up a trust fund for him and will do my best to help raise him up to be as caring and wonderful as you.
I'am lost without you. My big 6' 41/2" tall baby is gone.
I will love and remember always. DAD
Sunday, January 30th 2005 - 03:29:39 PM
 
 
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In Memory Of: *S.L.K.*
Your Name: *
Relationship: *
Memoriam: I Miss u so much.. ......... 2 years later........
Thursday, January 20th 2005 - 10:39:07 AM
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In Memory Of: Eria Jackson
Your Name: Heather Clark
Relationship: Best Friend
Memoriam: I never got to say goodbye... i remember all the nights we would stay up and cry about the ways life was unfair and how we wished to excape... i miss you so much and i know know what i feels like to get over the hump of the unhappyness. im so sorry now for not stoping you when you were at your worst, and not helping you seek out the help you needed... i miss you and love you very much... i hope we meet again and when we do i can save you for good.
Thursday, January 13th 2005 - 05:00:55 PM
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In Memory Of: Stephanie L. Kinghorn
Your Name: ~
Relationship: friend
Memoriam: Stephanie,
Its been almost 2 years since you left us and its still hard for me to cope with your death. I pray for you and your family everynight. You were an amazing person and a great friend. I miss you so much Stephy. You are finally in peace.

Stephanie Kinghorn
September 11, 1987 - January 22, 2003

Too young....
Sunday, January 9th 2005 - 03:11:45 PM
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In Memory Of: Page Petersen
Your Name: Rebecca
Relationship: Mom
Memoriam: Dear Page, I NEVER GOT TO SAY GOOGBYE,I LOVE YOU,AND SO DO YOUR THREE SISTERS AND BROTHER. I DO NOT UNDERSTAND WHY,I KNEW YOU HAD PROBLEMS IN YOUR LIFE, BUT DID NOT EVER THINK IT WOULD HAVE LEAD TO YOUR SUICIDE.I WANT YOU BACK IN OUR LIFE SO WE CAN MAKE EVERYTHING BETTER,BUT I KNOW THAT WILL NEVER HAPPEN, I AM TRYING TO GO ON WITH LIFE FOR YOUR BROTHER AND SISTERS,BUT SOME DAYS IT IS REALLY HARD. I LOVE YOU SO MUCH,BE HAPPY NOW, ONE DAY WE WILL ALL SEE EACH OTHER AGAIN. LOVE MOM,AUTUMN,ANNA,JOSHUA, ASHLEY...PAGE WAS BORN SEPTEMBER 16,1979...DIED SEPTEMBER 14,2003
Thursday, January 6th 2005 - 02:46:57 AM
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In Memory Of: Bill
Your Name: Mary
Relationship: Daughter
Memoriam: It has been 30 years and still we pause in sadness on the anniversary of the day when you left us. You were unwell and untreated, refusing help, taken by pain and shame, and a twisted belief it would help us all. I thank you for the love you always had for me and for Susan. That love - and the horror of your death - has taught your girls to overcome the shame and seek the help they need, as you aren't alone in your troubles - they move through the generations. Your death in many ways means we live. You are always missed, we are always sad. It is part of who we are, Dad. I love you.
Wednesday, January 5th 2005 - 04:31:05 PM
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In Memory Of: Micah J. Eaves
Your Name: B
Relationship: Sister
Memoriam: Your missed...Luv ya, Mean it this time...
Wednesday, December 22nd 2004 - 08:28:35 PM
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In Memory Of: Jeff Atkins
Your Name: Janie Cantu
Relationship: Friend
Memoriam: My dearest friend, I miss you so much. I wish I had known how you were feeling. I should understand why you couldn't hold on being that you and I both suffer from the same disorder. But I don't. Maybe I'm just angry that I couldn't see what was happening. I want you here. I miss our talks. I miss you so much. Sometimes I just wish I could go to your house and visit. But your'e not there. Someone else bought your house. I still pass by there though. Hoping after all these years that maybe your passing really didn't happen. But I know it did. I just want you to know that I love you. I always will. You may have left this life, but not mine. Please enter my dreams from time to time and lets talk like we use to. I miss you Jeff. I just do! Love always, J.
Thursday, December 16th 2004 - 06:21:08 AM
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In Memory Of: Claude Deschenes
Your Name: Francoise
Relationship: Cousine
Memoriam: I am sorry your family did not understand the deepness of your despair. You had mentionned it, but nobody believed you, because they thought you were exagerating...
but now we all do believe how deep your pain was ! And it is too late. You were truly in despair. Nobody took you seriously.

Now you can rest in peace. You made your point.
Wednesday, December 8th 2004 - 05:51:32 AM
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In Memory Of: Germaine St-Michel Verville
Your Name: Karolyn
Relationship: Grand Daughter
Memoriam: (1909-1974)
There were no medication back then... I wish you would be from this era; there is so much more options to relieve your pain nowadays...

Most of your grand-childs are bipolar. And we are doing fine, because there are resources out there.

REST IN PEACE GRANNY. YOU WERE BORN IN THE WRONG TIME.
Wednesday, December 8th 2004 - 05:47:20 AM
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In Memory Of: Morgan
Your Name: Catherine
Relationship: Friend
Memoriam: Morgan, I think of you often and regret not seeing you before you decided to end this life on earth. I hope you are at peace and in the company of angels with our Father in heaven.
Sunday, December 5th 2004 - 07:21:07 PM
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In Memory Of: Joe Dorey
Your Name: Kim
Relationship: Dad
Memoriam: I Remember how you made me laugh;
I Remember how you made me think;
I Remember how you made me sing and dance;
I will NEVER FORGET I was loved.
Friday, November 26th 2004 - 11:14:17 PM
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In Memory Of: phoenix
Your Name: leti
Relationship: friend
Memoriam: i love you girl.
Friday, November 19th 2004 - 07:23:12 PM
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In Memory Of: myself!
Your Name: David mack
Relationship: dmack99@hotmail.com
Memoriam: I am writing to express the hard facts about suicide. I myself on april 23rd, 2002 i tried killing myself, i took over 100 assorted pills. It was the hardest thing that i have ever doen and gone through. Everything in my life seemed to be falling apart, my family seemed to hate me, and my friends were distant, they were there but...they werent. I am 18 now, i have gone though alot in my life, good and bad. On april 23rd, it seemed that everything was lost. I THOUGHT i had nothing to live for, and i tried to take my life. I was found by my Step father, in the bathroom. The medics came, and took me to the hospital. I woke up 2 days later, with tubes all over me, inside me and needles poking me. It was the scariest thing that i have ever done. I woke up and beside me was my mother holding my hand, she had been there for the two days stayed there the whole time and never left my side. as soon as i woke up i started crying because what i had attempted failed. My first thought was why am i still alive? and i thought, God has a different plan. Im not a real church goer, but i do believe in god. the next few days were the hardest, i found out that many people cared about me, a friend who i had a falling out with years before, went to the hospital as soon as he found out. and he stayed there and visited me every day. my brother, sister's, mother, freinds, step father, all were there to help me through it. Alot of people think that someone taking there life is something that weak people do. but sometimes u feel like there is nothing else that you can possibly do!.... to me it was a way out of a deterating fmaily, a bad school, being a loser, not doing anything right. and it didnt work, and these days i am the happiest that i didnt die. i have had so many good things happen to me in the past 2 years and i am lucky to be ali. now i live everyday like its my last, i do all that i can and i try to experience everything at least once. I would have to say that drugs, and drinking were a huge influence on me! and now i wont touch them... i never thoguht that it would do that to me! to all those who have had a loved one pass away form a suicide, i know what everyone is going through and i am sorry for everyone of you who has to go through that. My elder sister also tried to commit suicide when her husband and her broke up. so i almost lost my sister then, i couldnt even talk to her or look at her, it was so difficult. I am sorry for every person who has lost a fmaily memeber, or frined to a suicide!
Tuesday, November 9th 2004 - 09:28:25 PM
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In Memory Of: Jessie
Your Name: Miss K.
Relationship: teacher
Memoriam: Dear Jessie, I remember your sweet, funny, and witty personality even as a kindergartener. You would be 21 now. I enjoyed the times that I had with your family as they became my personal friends. I was sad when I lost touch with them after their divorce. Years later, I finally found your dad first and then your mom. I was about to make contact with your mom to come and visit you. Then I got that fateful call from your mom. I will always remember you and will not let your death be in vain. I am going to be involved to help other bipolar people. I love you and miss you, Jessie. Your kinder teacher, Miss K.
Sunday, October 17th 2004 - 02:30:57 AM
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In Memory Of: Sergey
Your Name: Unknown
Relationship: His psychiatrist
Memoriam: !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!He was made fun of in life &I feel sorry 4 him.Also I no he had some(many)probelms in his life,& now won't have 2 deal with any of them any more.!!!!!!!!BE FREEE and LIVE A HAPPY LIFE IN THE AFTER LIFE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Tuesday, October 5th 2004 - 04:59:27 PM
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In Memory Of: orlando bloom
Your Name: andy
Relationship: best bud
Memoriam: u were awesome and u took all the chicks! but thats ok! b/c u always shared the goods!! i will buy all ur movies b/c i love u and will miss u deeply!!!!!
Tuesday, October 5th 2004 - 04:41:42 PM
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In Memory Of: Josh Pierce
Your Name: Lena
Relationship: Husband
Memoriam: i love u , I will never forget u.

!!!!!!!!!!!!WHY DID YOU HAVE TO LEAVE ME!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

!!!!!!!!!!!!!!111FLY BUTTERFLY, fly!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Tuesday, September 21st 2004 - 03:42:55 PM
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In Memory Of: Josh Piece
Your Name: Lena
Relationship: Husband
Memoriam: i love u , I will never forget u.

!!!!!!!!!!!!WHY DID YOU HAVE TO LEAVE ME!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

!!!!!!!!!!!!!!111FLY BUTTERFLY, fly!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Tuesday, September 21st 2004 - 03:40:10 PM
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In Memory Of: Irene B.
Your Name: Alls & Jewels
Relationship: Friend
Memoriam: She was a good friend,but very hyper.
Tuesday, September 21st 2004 - 03:29:27 PM
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In Memory Of: Irene B.
Your Name: Alls & Jewels
Relationship: Friend
Memoriam: She was a good friend,but very hyper.
Tuesday, September 21st 2004 - 03:29:23 PM
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In Memory Of: Carroll Hill
Your Name: Susan Eudaly
Relationship: friend
Memoriam: I found out seven years later your death was a suicide.. that hurt me so bad.. you were my only friend back then..I tried my best to help you all I could..I would have died for you Carroll.. but now Carroll I live for you... I keep breathing because life is worth living.. I'm bi-polar and I'm suicidal most times.. but life is worth living..because without you Carroll...my life got so hard..I kept going..and I'm going to keep on going..I wish I could have helped you more..you were such a beautiful man.. you were always there for me..I love you Carroll..but I'm learning from your mistakes.. I'm not going to do myself in..you made me so mad ... I started saying the word stupid all the time you wouldn't let me say it..that's how mad I was.. stupid. .. stupid it was stupid Carroll..O I love you..and hey.. buckupbuckaroo...
Sunday, September 19th 2004 - 12:42:03 AM
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In Memory Of: Carroll Hill
Your Name: Susan Eudaly
Relationship: friend/patient
Memoriam: I didn't find out till seven years later that when you died it was suicide.. you were the only friend I had before you died..you were my dial a therapist and I tried very hard to help you with everything in me..I'm so sorry I couldn't have helped you more.. I love you Carroll Hill and I will always love you..you told me I had a heart of gold but you were my heart of gold Carroll .. I know your up there teeing off on a perfect golf course on a perfect day..but down here you are deeply missed and deeply loved and I dedicate my life to not killing myself even though my bi-polar disorder says otherwise. I refuse to leave this world like that.. I will die when God takes me and not before.. I just wish I could have helped you more. I love you Carroll and hey. .. buck up bucaroo..
Sunday, September 19th 2004 - 12:20:43 AM
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In Memory Of: Joan Tait
Your Name: Malcolm Tait
Relationship: Son
Memoriam: Wife,mother, teacher, peace activist, we still need you
Sunday, August 29th 2004 - 03:20:24 PM
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In Memory Of: Corky Davis (George C. Davis Jr.)
Your Name: Candace
Relationship: Former Spouse
Memoriam: Hi Sweetie,
Although it has been almost ten years, there is not a day that passes, or a night of dreaming that does not include you.
How I wish that I had had it within my power to drive away the demons that drove you. You deserved better from your brain, your life and from me.
I know now that you are better in whatever form that takes. Your suffering is over. The children are well, mostly.
You'll always have my love.
Friday, August 20th 2004 - 03:22:30 PM
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In Memory Of: kenneth Fuentes - Artist
Your Name: Silvina
Relationship: Wife
Memoriam: My Darling you are my heart, my soul, my guru. The day you died I also died. Wait for me don't forget your promise.
My love
Monday, August 16th 2004 - 09:24:22 PM
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In Memory Of: Daniel A. Bunch
Your Name: Steven C. Bunch
Relationship: Brother
Memoriam: As most of you know, I'm Daniel's older brother Steven.
Daniel and I shared so many happy times together. When we were children growing up, Daniel and I would fight like any other brothers and we would play together and get along...sometimes. If there was one thing he was great at as a child it was aggrevation. Daniel was the king of aggrevation. He would always find the tinyest thing that would annoy me and would amplify it 100 times over until I would do something to him that would make him cry and guess who got in trouble. Not Daniel...oh no...he was ALWAYS innocent.
Daniel and I shared many difficult times as well. From the time he threw a rock at me and hit me in the head, to the times we would sit and have deep conversations by ourselves. He was always there for me when I was depressed, and I for him. We would both offer each other wisdom and advice and I will always cherish the times that we spent talking. It goes without saying that right now is the most difficult time Daniel and I have and will ever go through together. It tears me up to know that he's not here to comfort me physically, but spiritually I feel him hold me and tell me not to worry. I can hear him saying, "Steven, listen...I want you to keep living life to the fullest, don't sit and cry over my death. Instead just remember my life and all of the memories we would bring up every holiday and laugh about. Don't cry because I won't be there to be an uncle to your children. Don't cry because I won't be there to see you finally get your Dodge Viper. Don't cry because I won't be there to grow old with you. Dont' cry because I will always be there with you in spirit."
Daniel was a very caring and loving person. He loved each and every one of you. He enjoyed being the center of attention any time he could get the opportunity. He knew how to make us laugh, cry, be angry, and he taught us all how to love one another more and more.
ďEverybody needs . . . . a kitten, a Ford Mustang convertible with a V8 engine duel air bags cd cassette player anti-lock brakes full car sound system and enough to seat four, a house, a boom-box, a girlfriend, a computer, a TV, a brother.
I wrote a short poem I would like to share with everyone:

Not today will I see you smile
Not today will I hold your hand
Not today will I hold you tight
Not today....but someday

Not today will I see you laugh
Not today will I wipe your tears
Not today will I walk with you
Not today...but someday

Not today will we play games
Not today will we joke around
Not today will we watch the sunset
Not today...but someday

Not today will we climb trees
Not today will we record ourselves dancing
Not today will we see each other
Not today...but someday

I wear this bandana around my wrist today to honor the life of my brother Daniel. There were many times where he would want to wear the same thing as me just to be like me. Daniel eventually figured out how to be Daniel and would come up with his own style of showing his individualism. Well Daniel, now I'm copying you...I want to start a trend in honor of your life. I made a promise to him yesterday that I will wear this bandana on my wrist, not only for the rest of my days, but I will take it with me to my final resting place just as he is. It is my promise to him that I will live the rest of my life loving each person regardless of race, it is my promise to him that I will always treasure my family and friends just as much as he did each and every one of you, it is my promise to him that I will see him at the gates of heaven, and it is my promise to him that I will never....ever...forget him and I will see him again.
I donít worry about him because I know heís not alone. He has Grandpa Bunch, Papaw, Mossie, Grandpa Woods, and Grammie with him. One of his favorite comedians was Chris Farley. Iím sure the two of them have heaven in an uproar of laughter. I will forever miss you and I will forever love you. You ARE my brother and a great friend. I will see you again soon.

Tuesday, August 10th 2004 - 10:06:33 AM
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In Memory Of: Nanci Amanti-Brucker
Your Name: Rebecca
Relationship: Niece
Memoriam: Well, for the first time, I'm not really sure what to say to you. I feel as if I've said everything that I can...I tell you every day how much I miss you. We used to have so much fun- yes, YOU had fun sometimes! When we went to the beach, everyone stared at you because of how beautiful you were; when we stayed at home, you would sing to Mariah Carey, and dance the world away. There has been so much in my life that I wish you could have been there for, my friend. In a strange way, I believe that you are there, keeping me strong during these times of trial. I want you to know that I loved you then, as I do now, as I will for the rest of my life. I'm very sorry for all of your pain; the confusion that plauged you every moment of every day. I can only hope that I gave you some peace...I love you Nanc.

-Always, Rebecca
Sunday, August 8th 2004 - 10:50:38 AM
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In Memory Of: percey
Your Name: shawna aka texaschick
Relationship: girlfriend
Memoriam: I just wish you could've hold on one more day, or could've called me, but i know how it feels to not want to talk to anyone n that state of mind, i loved you and always will be in my heart. Love you always
Shawna.
Wednesday, July 14th 2004 - 12:49:09 AM
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In Memory Of: percey
Your Name: shawna aka texaschick
Relationship: girlfriend
Memoriam: I just wish you could've hold on one more day, or could've called me, but i know how it feels to not want to talk to anyone n that stae of mine, i loved you and always will be in my heart. Love you always
Shawna.
Wednesday, July 14th 2004 - 12:47:33 AM
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In Memory Of: ALL
Your Name: A Loving Mom of a Bipolar Son
Relationship: Love
Memoriam: To All of You people out there suffering from the lost of your loved one. My son suffers every day from this ugly illness. I don't understand why the Lord is not helping with all of the prayers being said every day for those who are suffering tremendously from Mental Illness. They need a miracle just to try and live one full day without their minds being in such torture and pain.

Why Lord....WHY?

YOU ARE ALL LOVED AND TRUELY MISSED BY YOUR FAMILY AND FRIENDS. I only hope I can keep my son alive one more day......he is the best son a parent could ever want.
Thursday, July 1st 2004 - 10:04:33 AM
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In Memory Of: Thomas L Paulin
Your Name: Marlene Ganz Paulin
Relationship: Wife
Memoriam: I miss You everyday It was a honor to have Loved you and it was an honor to be loved by You.

Sometimes I feel your presence and I know you are watching those you loved.

I know I will never forget and I will always love you til the day I am to be with you once again.

June 28,2004



Monday, June 28th 2004 - 05:36:54 PM
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In Memory Of: Thomas L Paulin
Your Name: Marlene Ganz Paulin
Relationship: Wife
Memoriam: I miss You everyday It was a honor to have Loved you and it was an honor to be loved by You.

Sometimes I feel your presence and I know you are watching those you loved.

I know I will never forget and I will always love you til the day I am to be with you once again.

June 28,2004



Monday, June 28th 2004 - 05:35:28 PM
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In Memory Of: stephanie kay rood
Your Name: patsy
Relationship: mom
Memoriam: i am so sorry. i wish i knew then what i know now as i was just diagnosed with bipolar.it runs in the family and if i`d known maybe i could of helped you more.i know you are happy now and not in such mental pain. i love you so much and understand what you went thru.i know god has wrapped his arms around you and you are very much loved here and there.i will always miss you but now that i have had same thoughts i truly understand
Sunday, June 20th 2004 - 08:06:44 AM
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In Memory Of: Poppy
Your Name: Amy
Relationship: granddaughter
Memoriam: I wish I had told you about Noah before you left. I'm sorry. I know you know about him now, and Frances too. I wish you could be here with them, you were the best friend a kid could have. I understand why you did what you did because I feel the same way all the time. What hurts is the thought that you were in so much pain that you felt there was no alternative. I just wanted to tell you how much I love you.
Sunday, June 6th 2004 - 12:14:06 PM
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In Memory Of: All those who have tried.
Your Name: Andi
Relationship: I am one of you!
Memoriam: Even though each and every one of us suffer from the same illness. Each one is differant and should be held in a differant way. Most of us have tried suicide. Unfortunatly some of us have not servived.
For those of you who didn't I am sorry that you felt traped. That there was no other answer besides death. As for those who have servived I hope that you have learned a great leason.
" No matter how much we think we're hurting. If we take our oen lives. We not only kill our selves but we kill a little bit of the people who love us."
So when comitting suiced we not only kill our selves but the people around us as well.
So the next time you deside sucide is the best. Go look in the eyes of your mother, father, sibling, a friend or in my case a grandparent.
They all love you, They want to help. So stop hiding find some one you trust, and let them help you.
"If you can't be strong for your self. Let some one be strong for you."
Thursday, June 3rd 2004 - 11:23:06 PM
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In Memory Of: Stephanie Louise Kinghorn
Your Name: *
Relationship: friend
Memoriam: Steph, it's been over a year now, and this still feels so unreal.. Your death has left a hole in our lives that will never be filled. It gives me comfort knowing you are at peace now, and can't feel pain anymore.
We love you Steph.. and we'll never forget you..

"This world was never meant for one as beautiful as you"

September 11 1987-January 21 2003

*15, there's still time for you...*
Tuesday, May 25th 2004 - 10:46:48 PM
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In Memory Of: Micheal Quinn
Your Name: anon
Relationship: friend
Memoriam: rest in peace my sweetheart, i will be with you very soon
Tuesday, May 25th 2004 - 05:31:02 PM
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In Memory Of: Helen
Your Name: Tomas
Relationship: Wife
Memoriam: I wish you didn't feel like you had to kill yourself. I loved you so much!
Saturday, May 22nd 2004 - 06:21:53 PM
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In Memory Of: all of you
Your Name: Teresita
Memoriam: In honor of all of you:
I truly believe that you are loved and missed. I want you to know that I understand why you did what you did. I don't look down on you for it because I have been through the suffering to. I like you, have tried to kill myself many times. But its not fair because I am still alive today and you are not. I feel guilt for that. Although I don't understand why god has given me so many chances I will do my best to live my life and not give up, because by doing that I can honor you. Know that I love you and I am thinking of you, I hope someday I can join you, but not from the death by my own hand but of a death that god has chosen for me. I wish I could have been there for you when you needed the help, I ask that you be there for me. Smile beatiful souls because you are radiant, you are the faces of god, you are precious and priceless. I love you.
Friday, May 21st 2004 - 05:09:59 AM
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In Memory Of: Elise
Your Name: Joan a.k.a. Pugsley-
Relationship: Friend
Memoriam: I only wish someone could have been there with you and that you didnot feel that you had to leave this world alone.
May Your Soul Be Bound Up In That Of Eternal LIfe. Amen.
Saturday, May 8th 2004 - 08:40:10 PM
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In Memory Of: marilyn
Your Name: renee
Relationship: mother-in-law
Memoriam: You phone dus the night before you took your life. We missed the signs, you spoke to your son, me, your granddaughter, the one you were so excited to have. The one we named for you, your mother before you. The night we heard the guilt was unbearable. I felt we should have known. You had planne deverything so well, your will was there, your funeral clothes were laid out as well as notes for all. A week after your funeral we found the christmas presents you left. It broke my heart. We didn't always see eye to eye but I loved you. I wanted you to be part of our childrens lives, see them grow. Your gone now. Alot of time has passed, you will be remembered always...I hope you are finally at peace!xo
Tuesday, April 27th 2004 - 09:35:48 PM
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In Memory Of: Donald George Johnson, Sr.
Your Name: Cynthia Johnson
Relationship: wife
Memoriam: My dearest Don, if only I had known just how much you were suffering I would have been more understanding and tried to do more to help you, but I was so ignorant to your illness. I have learned so much about bipolar since you left us and I only wish that I knew then what I know now...maybe you would still be with me. You were the ONLY true love of my life and I will love you and miss you, forever and always. Amen.
I miss your smile, I miss your eyes, I miss the way you held me in your arms and told me you loved me. I believed you then and I believe you still.
Tuesday, April 27th 2004 - 10:58:58 AM
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In Memory Of: myself
Your Name: frank
Relationship: self
Memoriam: i have tried for many years to deal witht the pain i am suffering and i cant do it any more. my emotions are out of control and my mind does not seem like mine anymore. I feel so lost in the world and no longer know my place, So I have decided to make it all end and be over with once and for all. I have hurt so many people in my life because of my mind not working the way it should. I am sorry jay i hurt you so bad that i pushed you to the point where you hate even the sight of me i truely do love you and i always will
mom and dad it is not your fault you did not see it comming because i hid it from you so you could not see the pain i am going thru. you have showed me nothing but love and support and i can not go on any more with the pain and the hurt i feel. I can not go on hurting people i love anymore.
I am not sure what else to say except i am sorry to all the people i have hurt in my life. And people out there who have loved ones who are sick watch them and try to know what they are feeling because it is easy to hid the pain from everyone else. with that i am off and i hope one day all of you will forgive me love frank
Friday, April 2nd 2004 - 08:16:00 PM
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In Memory Of: Peter David Dion 1973-2003
Your Name: joan
Relationship: mother
Memoriam: My darling son, my heart aches the more I understand your struggles with bi polar. I don't know if you intended to drown but the more I face facts the more I know you were in alot of pain. How I wish you and I had had the knowledge we needed to fight this illness together. We didn't have the time to fight this with knowledge. My life died with you and I pray you have peace and will be waiting for me when my time has come. Your are my son shine, brilliant, sweet, caring and loving and had more struggles with life than I could comprehend. You should have had a smarter mother-but no mother could have loved you more. I see your bright blue eyes in my mind and pray God is now with you because you deserve the Best...love and miss every day...your mom
Thursday, April 1st 2004 - 05:42:37 PM
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In Memory Of: stephanie kinghorn
Your Name: angel
Relationship: someone who cared too late
Memoriam: you were just a baby. you had so much more time left, but it was cut short. you'll always be remembered as a beautiful vibrant girl.
Monday, February 23rd 2004 - 03:44:24 PM
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In Memory Of: Tristan Johnson
Your Name: d.
Relationship: a friend
Memoriam: its not fair that life gave you so many problems, and so few resources to help you deal. your friends still miss you, we always leave a drink for you at the parties. see you someday.
Monday, February 23rd 2004 - 03:43:00 PM
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In Memory Of: Kenny
Your Name: Sheila
Relationship: Sister
Memoriam: Kenny,
I hope that you had a good life. We were never close but I always thought "someday". Yours was a straight clinical case of bi-polar. I'm sorry that I was not more alert- you reached out to me in your manic state, I wish I had seen you after you crashed, perhaps I would have recommended hospitalization.
Don't worry, we'll take care of your wife Kathy and your daughter Sarah. And Lauren, too! I wonder what she will be like. The pain is too new to fully process. You took your life on Feb. 5, 2004, today is Feb. 15. I know that you didn't mean to do it, that the illness took over. We were getting you help, and you slipped through. I'm soooo sorry.
Your death will be used to educate others, and to heal our family. I love you, I will see you on the other side, who knows when...

Sheila
Sunday, February 15th 2004 - 07:12:14 PM
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In Memory Of: Nanci Amanti-Brucker
Your Name: Krissy
Relationship: Sister/Best Friend
Memoriam: N-never said "no"
A-always there for you
N-never to be fogotten
C-cared for everyone
I-incredible beauty inside and out

Nanci I will never forget the day mommy called me and told me you were gone...I could not believe it..I wish you would have called me that day, I would have come over to talk to
you as I did before and we could have worked through it..
Instead you hung yourself without having said goodbye...I will never underdstand the "why"...I miss you more and more as time goes by...I will love you always, I will always wonder what might have been...Save me as place next to you in heaven...I know you are an angel doing god's work...
No goodbyes, only see you later my love....
Love,
Krissy
Monday, February 2nd 2004 - 09:56:13 PM
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In Memory Of: Beth K.
Your Name: Jen B.
Relationship: Friend, Karaoke Partner, and Fellow Dancing Queen.
Memoriam: Beth, I was so hurt and angry when I found out you'd overdosed, even though I understood full well why you did it. I knew I was possibly the last person you'd talked to that night. You had asked me to go out for coffee, but I was wrapped up in my own illness and wanted to stay in. I wish to God I'd have gone. I know it most likely wouldn't have prevented your death, but at least I would have had a chance to see you one last time.

I will never forget being a pallbearer at your funeral and thinking, "My God, this is my friend. My friend is in this box." I thought I would pass out before I made it to the front of the church. The incense was so thick. They played a tape of you singing Amazing Grace at your wake, and everyone was just breaking down - your voice was so beautiful and so perfect, it was soaring, and no one could believe that you were gone.

Jennifer and I went to the beach after your funeral and nearly drank ourselves into a coma. We couldn't do anything but cry. Neither of us could believe it, and sometimes I still can't. You were so happy and buoyant and full of life. Impossible to imagine you gone. Impossible to never hear your voice again.

I later tried to take my own life, violently. It was not the first time. Amazingly I was found, my arms stitched and my stomach pumped, in spite of my best efforts. I'm sure it was viewed as the proverbial "cry for help", but I meant it. I woke up in restraints, screaming with anger because I couldn't believe that someone had found me. Foiled again. It's pretty amazing that this country denies health care to half the people that desperately want it, yet they're really on the ball when a person desperately *doesn't* want it. Funny, that.

I'm now thirty, can you believe it? I never thought I'd see the big Three-Oh. I still think about suicide almost every day. I still starve and purge and self-injure as well, although I don't use drugs anymore. At least I've given up one vice, right?

I am still trying to seek help, but as always, psychiatry isn't doing much for me. Medication only helps sporadically, and I find little respite from my own mind. Sometimes I don't know whether I believe all of the hype about brain chemicals and neurotransmitters. Sometimes I just think that I was born "wrong", flawed. I think the only reason I don't commit suicide is that I don't want my family to feel the same pain that your loved ones felt. God, your family was wrecked, Beth. I have a five-year-old son (shocker, huh?) and I don't want him to be alone.

It's hard, though. I understand why you couldn't take any more, and your health problems were far worse than mine. I do know what it's like to hate life, though, the constant disappointments and the searing pain that no one can ever understand. I find myself wondering why I bother with all of these damn drugs, because they don't help. Therapy is useless as well. I find paying a person to listen to me whine ridiculous. You'd laugh if you heard the woman, too. She told me to buy a Barbie doll and beat the crap out of it. Can you imagine? She spends half of our sessions discussing her multitude of personal problems. Maybe I should be the one getting paid.

Anyway Beth, I miss you. I still go to karaoke bars with my dad fairly often, and I think of you every single time. I remember the words to every song you used to sing, even the country songs that I used to make fun of. You were such a phenomenal singer, such an incredible force of nature. Everyone in the club would become silent the moment you started to sing. It was mesmerizing.

I'm trying to hang on, Beth. I'm really trying. But either way, I look forward to seeing you again. I miss you more than I can say, and I love you.

Friday, January 30th 2004 - 01:33:25 PM
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In Memory Of: Mary Zirkle
Your Name: Matthew
Relationship: brother
Memoriam: Everday I miss you. I miss our childhood togehter. Your family and friends miss you dearly. The disease you suffered,I now understand. Since the 5th of september in 2001 it has been a slow a long journey of grief. I miss your sarcasim, your occasional smile. nothing can fill your void. As my faith is slowly being repaired I know that you can see and understand things you couldn't here. The seventeen years went too fast, but i'm thankful that I even had you at all. You're an angel that shines on us all now. Our grief is proof of the love we continue to have for you everyday. The undescrible pain we all endure will be gone when we reunite again someday.Your mother and father and two brothers miss you so, in words that can not be described. We love you Mary!
Thursday, January 29th 2004 - 01:27:14 PM
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In Memory Of: Robert Tucker
Your Name: Tina
Relationship: sister
Memoriam: Now you are my guardian angel. You were so young and the family tried so hard to find out how to help you. You were bipolar and found refuge in street drugs. You were 1 year clean and living healthy when one day you decided to take your life. We will never understand why and we will always have a torn heart and open wound from your absence. God has you now in his arms. Oh, Robert you have no idea how much we love you and hold you in our heart. I'm sorry you suffered and if I had only one wish in the world it would be to have 1 moment in time with you to hug you and kiss your face! I'll always miss my one and only brother. As I wait here for my unborn child to come into this world I think of how much I would have loved to mother you in this world and make sure everything was ok with you. You taught me a lesson: we are here on this earth to be loved and love others. People may die but the love for that person lives on forever...beyond life. I love you with allll my heart and soul!
Tuesday, January 27th 2004 - 10:50:17 PM
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In Memory Of: Wacey Lynn Baha
Your Name: Mom and Cassy
Relationship: Mom and Sister
Memoriam: To my Dearest Son: Its been hard everyday of our life's, knowing that you will never come through our doors again, walking in with that sweet handsome face of your, your big cheesy smile, and asking for a couple of dollars, so you could run up to the store and buy something to drink. I miss how you use to bug me for the truck, saying you wanted to go see one of your friends, and that you would come home quickly before Dad got home. Football seasons has not been the same, it hurts when that time comes around, and taking your sister to the games have been hard, but I sit there at the football games and remember all your games you use to play. The pain, the hurt, knowing on October 19th 2001, you played your last game, the day before, it was your 17th birthday, and the day after your last game, our whole world came crashing down because you decided to end it all, so you left us that morning, and our world has not been the same. We miss you, we hurt, we love you, and you'll always be in heart's forever and ever. God Bless, Son, our "Chewlie" may you Rest in Peace. Love you Mom, and sister Cassy. PS: All your friends miss you, and they said, they'll meet you at the crossroad. Plus Tonya loves you and misses you, (first love is forever).
Monday, January 26th 2004 - 02:26:00 AM
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In Memory Of: Wacey Lynn Baha
Your Name: Mom and Cassy
Relationship: Mom and Sister
Memoriam: To my dearest son: Its been hard everyday of our life's, knowing that you will never come through our doors again, walking in with that sweet handsome face of your, your big cheesy smile, and asking for a couple of dollars, so you could run up to the store and buy something to drink. I miss how you use to bug me for the truck, saying you wanted to go see one of your friends, and that you would come home quickly before Dad got home. Football seasons has not been the same, it hurts when that time comes around, and taking your sister to the games have been hard, but I sit there at the football games and remember all your games you use to play. The pain, the hurt, knowing on October 19th 2001, you played your last game, the day before, it was your 17th birthday, and the day after your last game, our whole world came crashing down because you decided to end it all, so you left us that morning, and our world has not been the same. We miss you, we hurt, we love you, and you'll always be in heart's forever and ever. God Bless Son, our "Chewlie" may you rest in Peace. Love you Mom, and sister Cassy. PS: All your friends miss you, and they said, they'll meet you at the crossroad.
Monday, January 26th 2004 - 02:14:33 AM
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In Memory Of: Ian Wilkinson
Your Name: Donna Simone Wilkinson
Relationship: Fiance
Memoriam: BORN 23/10/1972_DIED 30/09/2003
My soulmate and beautiful dreamer. you need no forgiveness you did nothing wrong. i will love you always and forever until we meet again. born on earth to live in heaven. you will live on in your daughter babes, she kisses you everyday xxx
Saturday, January 3rd 2004 - 06:16:30 PM
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In Memory Of: Russ
Your Name: Robyn
Relationship: Grandpa
Memoriam: You are remembered and loved always.
Friday, January 2nd 2004 - 07:23:21 PM
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In Memory Of: Donnie Martin
Your Name: Stacy Hoppe
Relationship: Best Friend
Memoriam: Donnie,
Not a day goes by without my thinking of you and everytime I think of you I recall the poem by Robert Frost
NOTHING GOLD CAN STAY.... You WERE GOLD DONNIE ,I LOVE YOU...STAC

Natures first green is gold
Her hardest hue to hold
Her early leafs a flower
But only so an hour
Then leaf subsides to leave
So eden Sank to grief
Dawn goes down to day
Nothing GOLD CAN STAY
Sunday, December 28th 2003 - 10:38:33 PM
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In Memory Of: Greg Thompson
Your Name: Susan Kennedy-Ross
Relationship: Friend/Brother
Memoriam: Greg:

It has been 3 or 4 years since you put a gun to your head. I have stopped counting the years. Your mother and father miss you so much. I must confess I have cut down on my visits to them because the pain is unbearable at times; especially for Wayne.

You are in Heaven now, Greg. You are at Peace. But those of us that are left are still struggling with life here on Earth.

We think of you often and fondly and I just wish you had called me or gone to a counselor and talked about your feelings of desperation. There's nothing that can't be sollved with Love and Perseverence. I remember so well when we were having lunch in a restaurant and we were talking about your diabetes. I commented that you had managed to keep your weight down and I asked you how you did it. With careful thought you said, "Perseverence." What in incredible word. I have used that word so often since you died and I think of you every time I say it. Perseverence. Why did you not use your stalwart perseverence when you felt so suicidal? I'll never know, but I think you just gave up. And I feel so sad about that.

We'll always love you, Greg.

Susan
Wednesday, December 10th 2003 - 01:39:07 AM
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In Memory Of: Stephanie Allen
Your Name: Lynn
Relationship: mother
Memoriam: I miss you, my golden beautiful girl. I dream that I hold you and comfort you, stroke your blond hair, and that you are without anguish. It must have been unimaginable, the pain you felt. My heart breaks at the thought. I dream, sometimes, that you are sorry for the choice you made. If we all could have realized the anguish you were in, could we have stopped you? I hope that you keep coming to me in my dreams so I can hold you for that moment before you dissappear, weep my hot tears on your silk blond hair, and feel you alive and well before I am startled into wakefullness.
Saturday, December 6th 2003 - 02:39:02 AM
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In Memory Of: Alicia Anne Baker
Your Name: Elissa
Relationship: Best Friend
Memoriam: We were two happy 17 year olds loving life, or at least it seemed. But then you left me alone that day, puzzled and cold. I wish i'd known that you felt such pain because if i had i would've worn that burden for you because you were the truest friend i have known and never deserved any harm. I miss you babe and will never replace you...
Wednesday, November 5th 2003 - 08:01:24 AM
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In Memory Of: Glen Norman Thompson
Your Name: Dayna Colleen Thompson
Relationship: Father
Memoriam: Dad, Onkie, I miss you very very much, and im always thinking of you and praying that you are happy. I will never forget the dream I had of you standing there with that big smile upon your face.It brought me so much comfort to know that you are happy. It felt so real Dad.I cant seem to amagine the pain and sorrow that you were in for you to do something like this. You will always be on my mind and in my heart. You are a part of me and i will do everything in my power to make you proud of me.You were always very proud of me and the family.I need you to help me through this difficult time. Everything I do, I do it for you. It just hurts me so bad to know that you were hurt so bad. I really miss you and i know that i will see you one day again, so that gives me peace. Its going to be a hard struggle to get through this but you raised me to be strong and this i will do.I knew you were sad Dad, but i didnt think in my wildest dreams that you would do something like this to me and the family? Its a hard pill to swallow and WHY??? What were you thinking that night?? Will never be answered by anyone but you. So I will have to wait till my dying time to find those answers.
I LOVE YOU, YOU ARE ALWAYS IN MY DREAMS
LUV YOUR DAUGHTER
FRAGLE
DAYNA
Thursday, October 30th 2003 - 12:00:50 PM
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In Memory Of: Glen Norman Thompson
Your Name: Dayna Colleen Thompson
Relationship: Father
Memoriam: Dad, Onkie, I miss you very very much, and im always thinking of you and praying that you are happy. I will never forget the dream I had of you standing there with that big smile upon your face.It brought me so much comfort to know that you are happy. It felt so real Dad.I cant seem to amagine the pain and sorrow that you were in for you to do something like this. You will always be on my mind and in my heart. You are a part of me and i will do everything in my power to make you proud of me.You were always very proud of me and the family.I need you to help me through this difficult time. Everything I do, I do it for you. It just hurts me so bad to know that you were hurt so bad. I really miss you and i know that i will see you one day again, so that gives me peace. Its going to be a hard struggle to get through this but you raised me to be strong and this i will do.I knew you were sad Dad, but i didnt think in my wildest dreams that you would do something like this to me and the family? Its a hard pill to swallow and WHY??? What were you thinking that night?? Will never be answered by anyone but you. So I will have to wait till my dying time to find those answers.
I LOVE YOU, YOU ARE ALWAYS IN MY DREAMS
LUV YOUR DAUGHTER
FRAGLE
DAYNA
Thursday, October 30th 2003 - 12:00:48 PM
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In Memory Of: June Rae Ford
Your Name: Dena Marie Ford Johnson
Relationship: Cousin
Memoriam: Oh June Bug!
My heart aches for you! I can't bear to think what you were feeling that made you capable of taking your own life. You were so kind and loving. Your laugh was infectious and your spirit so uplifting. The last time I spoke with you the tone of your voice was bleak and I couldn't get through to you. I couldn't make you want to live. I couldn't find you a reason to live for. You had to find it for yourself. I keep going through my memories of us as children. You are my favorite cousin. I remember how much I cried when you moved back to Indiana after we got to spend so much time together in Florida. As children we had so much fun together playing in the mud, riding in the wagon down the hill...and tether ball. We loved tether ball! And Skipper Dog! Listening to LoverBoy. Making prank phone calls. Hey remember, "Yes, m'am this is the electric company, Is your refridgerator running? Well, then you better go catch it!"
I wish you could have accepted the fact that bipolar disorder was illness. That medication could have helped. That seeing a therapist was not an indication of weakness. Self love is a beautiful thing. I wish you could have found it.
You will forever be in my heart June Bug! I love you!
Thursday, October 9th 2003 - 09:51:05 AM
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In Memory Of: Gina Marie Lorenzini
Your Name: Tom Lorenzini
Relationship: Father
Memoriam: Hi blondie...I had a dream about you last night and got to hold you in my arms. It was so vivid that I could actually smell the soap on your skin. I had many questions to ask you but you stopped me before I could ask them by telling me that there was nothing that I could have done to prevent this. I miss you more than you can imagine. Visit as often and whenever you can...I love you baby doll....Dad
Thursday, September 11th 2003 - 12:57:49 PM
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In Memory Of: Landon Glen Burget
Your Name: Jennifer
Relationship: cousin
Memoriam: Landon, Hey its been over 8 years since we lost you. No one really knows why things happened the way they did..You were only 15 years old at the time.. I know that you are at rest with your dad and your nephew Wesley now ..and im sure you are takin great care of them.. You are loved and missed dearly ..My god bless you ...
Sunday, September 7th 2003 - 03:10:33 AM
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In Memory Of: Hodgie Metz
Your Name: Robyn Schuler
Relationship: Family Friend/Neighbor
Memoriam: Dearest Hodgie,
I remember you from when I was a little girl up until you decided to leave your body. You were always the funny one, the practical joker, making everyone smile. They say that happiness is a mask for sadness, in your case I suppose it is true. You left behind a plethora of people who still love you and pray for you to this day. Be free Hodgie.
Monday, September 1st 2003 - 10:47:09 AM
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In Memory Of: Slyvia Heishman
Your Name: kaycee
Relationship: psuedo-sister/friend/co-worker
Memoriam: Last Monday, my close friend and co-worker/boss Sylvia took her own life...
Now any of us who has contemplated suicide understand the desparation that Sylvia was experiencing...the feelings that those that we love will be better off without us etc. etc.
What I did not understand until now was the total devastation this leaves behind...emotionally, financially...in each and every aspect of life...nothing is left untouched... the community...the workplace...and the family & friends...you can read about it...see shows on it...and still not understand...
I hope that if there is anyone at all reading this message who considers taking their own life...stop for a second...reach out...get help...I know you've read this part before too...there's always a reason not to get help...we can't afford it...we can't admit it...we feel unworthy of the help...there is no other way out...I've used all of these myself...
By the grace of God, I survived my attempts...by the grace of God my family is not walking around with the blank stares of those who are asking themsleves, "why", "what could I have done", and "If only..."
Please reach out...those of us who have survivied can also tell you...the light is at the end of the tunnel...as dark and black as things look right now...you are only around a corner and that's why it seems so far away...Please get the help you deserve!!!

Sylvia...I love you...I miss you...I forgive you...be at peace!!!
thoughts &prayers
kaycee
Thursday, August 14th 2003 - 06:43:32 AM
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In Memory Of: Dennis, Ray Tremper
Your Name: David Tremper
Relationship: brother
Memoriam: Dennis, i don't know what happened. you were ok the night before but the next morning i find you on the floor. i know you were lonely,, and confused but i never thought suicide was on your mind. i should of spent more time with you, i'll never have that chance again. you were my best friend and i miss you so much. i know your with god,you had such a good heart. i need my brother, i wish i could of seen what you were thinking of doing, i just feel i could of prevented this somehow.everyday you cross my mind, and i want you to know you are missed very much. i love you my brother , my best friend, rest in peace, you'll never be forgotten, david
Sunday, July 20th 2003 - 08:36:42 PM
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In Memory Of: Kurt Cobain
Your Name: Anonymous
Relationship: i love him, i'm a huge fan
Memoriam: Kurt, i wish you were still alive. Me and many others love you very much, you will always be in my heart.
Friday, July 18th 2003 - 11:04:46 PM
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In Memory Of: Terry Lee Gold
Your Name: Amy Sherwood
Relationship: daughter
Memoriam: terry was a good dad the only dad that i ever had.When ever i needed him he was there till the very end.he loved my mom my brother and me dearly and we loved him back. But i know that he will always love me and be there for me no matter what. Terry may god accept you in his loving arms forever.may your soul rest in peace.
love,
AMY
Friday, July 18th 2003 - 10:09:13 PM
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In Memory Of: Chuckie Nagle
Your Name: Leah
Relationship: good friend
Memoriam: I was devastated when I heard. Completely crushed. But I understand. I know what you went through with Dana. And I know it was hard. I wish I was around here instead of miles and miles away. I wish I could have helped you. I hope you and Dana are together now. I miss you. Love you.
Friday, July 18th 2003 - 11:27:58 AM
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In Memory Of: David White
Your Name: Dana
Relationship: best friends/life companion
Memoriam: dear david
i know you didn't mean to hurt us. i know you were confused. the accidnet will always haunt me, an then once you woke up i thought things could be perfect. that there was a chance. i geuss it was too much for you. i thought you were doing well. so did the doctors. your brother, cory too.i geuss telling you that andria had comitted suicide while you were in acoma, was way too much too soon. we shouldn't have told you, but how could we lie. i miss you dearly. i don't know how i am still able to wake up every morning. i pray every single night that god could take my life and bring us together once again. but then i am also happy that you get to rest, that you and andria get to stay together...forever. i love you so much. i will forever keep you alive in my heart and in my memory..."pictures fade but memories forever" your favorite quote...as i cry myself to sleep i whisper those words...and picture you in my mind...i will always love you david, always no matter what, no words can discribe how much i love you...and miss you.

love always and forever
Dana
Friday, July 18th 2003 - 12:08:39 AM
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In Memory Of: Steven Leon Letendre - Oct. 7, 1956 - May 26, 2002
Your Name: Debbie
Relationship: former wife and best friend
Memoriam: Oh babe...now I know why it all happened...bipolar disorder and not knowing it until now...a year after your death...I still feel you around me all the time...I know that I will be with you again in heaven someday...until then you will never be forgotten and always be loved with three red roses and marigolds all around...Yo Ti Amo Da Vinci...forever...your Debbie always
Saturday, June 14th 2003 - 06:40:22 PM
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In Memory Of: Michael
Your Name: S
Relationship: cousin
Memoriam: Michael - we miss you so much. It has been a long time since your suicide but we are all still hurting and thinking about you all the time. All of the good memories. Alot of people were very angry especially with the way you did it. I want you to know that I understand - you were not thinking straight. This was the only way for you to let go of the pain. I know because I am going through similar pain. Thank God there is medicine out there now that is helping me. I know that you are up in heaven and greeted your brother when he passed away. you were a great man and awesome cousin. Love you
Tuesday, June 3rd 2003 - 09:46:49 PM
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In Memory Of: Michael
Your Name: S
Relationship: cousin
Memoriam: Michael - we miss you so much. It has been a long time since your suicide but we are all still hurting and thinking about you all the time. All of the good memories. Alot of people were very angry especially with the way you did it. I want you to know that I understand - you were not thinking straight. This was the only way for you to let go of the pain. I know because I am going through similar pain. Thank God there is medicine out there now that is helping me. I know that you are up in heaven and greeted your brother when he passed away. you were a great man and awesome cousin. Love you
Tuesday, June 3rd 2003 - 09:41:03 PM
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In Memory Of: Justin
Your Name: Leah
Relationship: Sister
Memoriam: Justin, I didn't realize until too late how close we could have been...should have been. I forgive you for everything and I love you...I'm just sorry that it took your death for me to forgive you. I still miss you...I hope you knew that underneath everything, I really did care about you. You'll be forever remembered.
Saturday, May 31st 2003 - 12:32:22 AM
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In Memory Of: Frankie
Your Name: Susan
Relationship: Dear Friend
Memoriam: I was devasted to hear the news.. So many questions left unanswered. I couldn't understand why you had to leave us. But, God knows just what you were going through. I hope that you're in heaven now and that you finally found peace.

A friend that I will never forget. You will always have a place in my heart.

Saturday, May 24th 2003 - 12:50:15 AM
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In Memory Of: Renee Lynn Taylor
Your Name: Michael P. Taylor
Relationship: Husband
Memoriam: It has just been over year since you had depart from us. But to me it seems like forever. I long to hold you one last time. Life is so much more different now with out you. I have so many ?'s that are left unanswered. I await for the day to be standing by your side forever. But for now God has plans for me to live out my and take care of our children. My heart is for ever yours. And even though we are seprated in the flesh our souls are still much combined and when I look into our children's eye I can see the reflection of you looking back at me and I begin to smile.
Thursday, April 17th 2003 - 10:19:44 PM
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In Memory Of: Mom
Your Name: Stephanie
Relationship: daughter
Memoriam: Mom it feels like a dream, but i know its true
everyday i sit and cry, lord help me im very blue
i know your much better, but down here its like stormy weather
im so lost i need you mommy i love you and miss youso much
im only 17 i need a moma but i know you are looking after me even though i cant see you love YA







Tuesday, April 8th 2003 - 03:41:56 PM
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In Memory Of: Mom
Your Name: Stephanie
Relationship: daughter
Memoriam: Mom it feels like a dream, but i know its true
everyday i sit and cry, lord help me im very blue
i know your much better, but down here its like stormy weather
im so lost i need you mommy i love you and miss youso much
im only 17 i need a moma but i know you are looking after me even though i cant see you love YA
Tuesday, April 8th 2003 - 03:40:42 PM
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In Memory Of: Mom
Your Name: Stephanie B.
Relationship: Daughter
Memoriam: Mom i know you didnt mean to hurt anyone by doing this , i still love you and miss you. Life is hard now , im young i need a moma but i know you are watching over me, i know you are in a better place . Rest in PEace Love Sissy
Monday, April 7th 2003 - 06:52:35 PM
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In Memory Of: Geoff Green
Your Name: Sally
Relationship: Best friend/companion
Memoriam: Looking back... on the memory of,
It has only been 6 months, I am just a child. We were both held helpless in a world that did not accept us, we were both affraid. We were a great team and could have made it through, if only you had gotten the right kind of help. I hope you can rest now, I hope you never ment to hurt me. why? someday I will be able to ask you. I hope you didn't mean for me to find you, you hurt me like no one else ever could have hurt me, but you taught me so much in life before you ended it, so thank you for everything and thank you for loving me.
But I am still in this world, this scary world, crying myself to sleep every night, the only difference is you left me in it to fight through on my own.
I will never forget you.
Monday, February 3rd 2003 - 11:25:21 PM
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In Memory Of: C
Your Name: T
Relationship: family
Memoriam: I never found out how you died until I became sick...I pressured...needed to know if there was this life-shattering monster in our family. I am so sad that I lost you when I was so young (and so were you!) I am now grieving twice, once when you died and now...because I know why...because I understand the pain. Everyone says how alike we are. When I get down, I think of you and try to keep going so I can do all the things that you didn't get to do...things we should have done together. I am having a hard time, but I will get through it. I love you.
Monday, February 3rd 2003 - 07:12:33 PM
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In Memory Of: Mark Noffsinger
Your Name: Ursula
Relationship: Mother
Memoriam: Mark,
You are gone now but will never be forgotten.
Your Sisters and I Love and miss you very much.
Love Mom
Sunday, January 19th 2003 - 04:47:45 PM
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In Memory Of: Mark Noffsinger
Your Name: Ursula
Relationship: My Son
Memoriam: Mark,
You are gone now but will never be forgotten.
Your Sisters and I Love and miss you very much.
Love Mom
Sunday, January 19th 2003 - 04:46:34 PM
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In Memory Of: Shannon Butler
Your Name: Rebecca Rowan
Relationship: friend
Memoriam: Shannon,

I only knew you for a little while, but I liked you a lot. I liked your stories and the talks we had and the time you
showed me how to play poker. I know you left behind a family that misses you and children that needed a father. I know you didn't need to die, but I understand that sometimes suicide seems like the best way to answer a question. I hope you are looked after in heaven. You changed my life.
Monday, January 6th 2003 - 06:57:48 PM
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In Memory Of: Patrick A. H.
Your Name: Kathy A. H.
Relationship: Husband and Father
Memoriam: Even though your life on earth was not as you wanted it to be, we loved you through all your grief and dissapointments. I am so sorry you decided death was your only option. May you rest in peace.
Saturday, December 28th 2002 - 12:54:43 PM
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In Memory Of: Philip E LaPan
Your Name: yvonne Rawling
Relationship: sister
Memoriam: Dear Phil, I still miss you as much today as ever. It has been over seventeen years now that we have been without your love, your laughter, yolur easy good nature. You were so much for so many people. I wish little Jax and Carl could have known you. I console myself that we will all be together again one day. I miss you dear brother. You were wonderful.
Wednesday, December 25th 2002 - 06:48:32 PM
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In Memory Of: Bill Hosfelt
Your Name: Kristie
Relationship: friend
Memoriam: All these months later and I still can't believe this happened. I wish to God everyday that I had dinner with you that night, just three days before this happened. I will never forgive myself for not hearing the trouble in your voice. I don't know how I could have been so blind. I miss you so much that my heart just aches everyday. There isn't a day that goes by that you aren't in the car with me driving home and singing 80s tunes at the top of our lungs. I wish I could have been more of a help to you.
Bill was the kind of guy that it was nearly impossible to have a bad time around. He was one of the funniest and goofiest guys I have ever known. We were going to grow old and grouchy together because no one else would have us. We were going to live near the beach and have bad wicker furniture like the Golden Girls.
I just spent my first Thanksgiving without bowling with Bill. Nothing feels normal anymore. I can't even drive through Ligonier anymore. I did go to the grave but it was so surreal I couldn't stay.
I hope that the peace you were looking for was found. And I hope you finally realized how much you are cared about. So many people love and miss you Bill. So many.
I have never had a friend like you and there is a piece of me that is dead too. The part of me that burned brightly was put out with your flame. I've always thought of you as my big brother and I just want you to know how much your little sister misses you.
Love and Marlboros always
Kristie
Monday, December 16th 2002 - 07:09:12 PM
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In Memory Of: Dale George Yngsdahl
Your Name: Donna Jean Yngsdahl-Lopez
Relationship: Paternal Daughter
Memoriam: Men Are Not to Be Judged By their Appearance, but by the the content of their lives and their works!

Dad WE Love You

Friday, December 13th 2002 - 08:45:26 PM
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In Memory Of: Lawrence Philip Birch
Your Name: Pattie Fried
Relationship: sister
Memoriam: We will always be so proud of the person you were. Rest in Peace.
Thursday, December 12th 2002 - 10:36:00 AM
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In Memory Of: Jason L. Weir
Your Name: Lillian Thompson
Relationship: Friend
Memoriam: No More Pain

Here I sit 'cause I can't sleep
I feel as though this is what he speaks...
Though I left you all alone
don't be sad 'cause I am home.
I left the pain and hurt behind
now I am happy all the time.
I'm with my Lord, my Jesus Christ
the only one who could save my life.
I'm sorry for the pain I caused
just remember me as I was.
I love you all so much you see
and soon enough you will be with me.
When yout day of rest does come
you'll meet me in our home above.
Until that day live on for me
becuase I'm happy now, wait you'll see.
I miss you all and I know I'm missed.
I'm sorry it had to end like this.
The pain was just too much to bear,
but like I sasid there is no pain up here.

In loving memory of
Jason L. Weir

By Carrie E. Fultz
10/23/1999

I love Jason with all of my heart Yesterday Today Tomorrow and Forever!!!!!!
Wednesday, December 11th 2002 - 09:35:54 PM
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In Memory Of: Jason L. Weir
Your Name: Lillian Thompson
Relationship: Friend
Memoriam: No More Pain
Wednesday, December 11th 2002 - 09:21:05 PM
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In Memory Of: Josie B.
Your Name: Denise
Relationship: neighbor
Memoriam: Although I did not Josie since she was a little girl, I know how much her father's death from Aids affected her. I know she felt alone and discriminated against because she was adopted and did not get along with her adoptive mother. I just lift her up to God and pray that her soul rests in peace. God welcome her into your warm loving arms of unconditional love. In Jesus' name I pray. Amen.
Wednesday, December 11th 2002 - 05:11:02 PM
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In Memory Of: Joe C., Joe T., and Billy L.
Your Name: Denise
Relationship: grade school friends and cousin
Memoriam: I pray for my grade school friends and my cousin who I lost to suicide that their souls may be at peace and rest now with God. I know their pain must have been unbearable to them for them to take their own lives. I hope that more people will learn to understand that human beings are sensitive, fragile beings and there are so many different factors that can lead to this tragedy. May they rest in peace.
Tuesday, December 10th 2002 - 03:28:23 PM
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In Memory Of: Jewel ( Julie )
Your Name: Rick F.
Relationship: Soul Mates
Memoriam: I will never forget the moment I lost the grasp of your hand and you took flight to end your pain. We made a promise to each other to take this flight together, but I was stopped by an intruder, stopping me from joining you. I know you are with God now and rest in peace. I havent forgotten, I have a promise to keep. I loveed You then and now and God willing I will see you soon somehaw. God Bless Jewel Rest In Peace
Friday, December 6th 2002 - 05:30:37 PM
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In Memory Of: Grand Master Demoley
Your Name: Bro. Peter Pavlonis M.M. SMC
Relationship: Spiritual Contact
Memoriam: Beloved Grand Master, who was blinded by his own success, and then betrayed in the worst possible manner. Recanted his confession and faced his own death. Because of what was in his heart and soul. NOT because he felt sorry for himself. Relatives of suicidies should understand there is difference. Some of us do not belong here or our work is done. stop looking at what you think is wrong with them and see if you can understand they are experienced in thoughts and feelings you could learn from.
Friday, November 29th 2002 - 11:34:07 PM
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In Memory Of: kevin wayne pendleton
Your Name: memory lord
Relationship: birth mother
Memoriam: Kevin ,if only I could have save you.I think of you everyday of my life. My bipolar illness caused me to lose you and your brother. Never does a day go bye that the pain is so unbearable, I just want to join you. your with god now rest in peace. I love you mom
Thursday, November 28th 2002 - 07:24:02 PM
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In Memory Of: Anna Wills (Annabanna)
Your Name: Kelly
Relationship: Best Friend
Memoriam: *Annabanna*
If only I could of helped you climb out of the DEEP hole you were in. I wish more then anything in the world that I could hug you one last time and tell you eventually everything was going to be ok. It's been excatly three weeks since you took your life and in alot of ways it hurts more now then it did when I first found out. There will not be a day that goes by in my entire life that I wont think about you even for a split second. What I want more then anything in the world is to know that you're out of pain and you KNEW how much I loved you. I am thankful that I knew you for the time that I did. I hope one day I will see you again.
I love you punkrockturtle!!!!!!!!!!!!
Tuesday, November 26th 2002 - 11:53:24 AM
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In Memory Of: Randy and Matt
Your Name: Melanie
Relationship: Little Sister
Memoriam: We never had it easy, but we had each other. One of you left as we were entering adolescence, the other as we were entering adulthood. I wish you could have stayed. I've felt every emotion towards you, good and bad. I'm not over it, but I've finally accepted it. I know how you felt, the place you were in, but I still cannot understand. I don't think I ever will. But I still love you.

The only thing that got me through the initial loss was obstinance. I want to live every experience in life that you guys wouldn't let yourselves live. I won't get to see you guys balding, or beer-gutted, or working nine-to-five or paying a mortgage or kissing your wives or playing with your kids or spoiling your grandchildren. I won't get to see you as men. But I'll do my best to be a woman of substance, to live life to the fullest, and to let the positive impact your lives had on me impact others the same breathtaking, invigorating way... You both felt helpless and as though life had no answers for your struggles, but I assure you neither of you lived in vain. You were wonderful beyond words.

It's been hard without you guys. One Musketeer just doesn't have the same ring.

My heroes, my princes , my knights, my wings, my fishing buddies, my mischief-makers, my SuperMen, my friends... My big bruddahs. I thank you for every moment I had with you.
Monday, November 25th 2002 - 12:18:09 AM
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In Memory Of: Lisa Brower
Your Name: Mindy Toussaint
Relationship: family friend
Memoriam: Lisa, I don't know where to begin. I have learned so much from you, even though you were struggling on the inside, you held strong and taught me alot. You were homecoming queen, class president, valedictorian to our school but everything else to all of us. You overcame alot to do what you did for your family, friends, school, and me. You taught me that if you work hard and follow your dreams you can do accomplish anything. And I know this sounds trite, but it's true. And thus why I am making a tribute video to you, so that everyone will know how much of an impact you had on everybody, and how truly amazing you are. And, especially, how you changed every life you touched, and we are all better people for having known you. We miss you alot and we all love you so very much, and we know you are in a better place now.
Sunday, November 24th 2002 - 10:40:38 PM
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In Memory Of: ronald james brown
Your Name: bonita elaine brown
Relationship: wife
Memoriam: we all love you & miiss you so very much
i don't understand you said you would never leave me
Sunday, November 24th 2002 - 12:15:31 AM
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In Memory Of: bruce
Your Name: joann
Relationship: sister
Memoriam: so many years you've left us yet still we grieve , too young only 23 to leave us to live with out your witt and charm. you left us before we knew you too suffered the illness as so your sisters' ,i pray you and vicky have found your peace, i still miss you as it was yesterday not 21 years ago when the pain for you became more then the fight for life. i'm still fighting dear brother and will continual yet i long to see my brothers and sisters .i miss you still your big sister jo
Saturday, November 23rd 2002 - 09:15:29 PM
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In Memory Of: vicky
Your Name: joann
Relationship: sister
Memoriam: dear dear vicky it was a year ago this last aug. that you died [2001] still i cry for you .i miss my sister ,i miss you..we both suffer from this illness you couldn't take the pain any longer and i understand far too well i miss you sister dear too young were you to leave me...
Saturday, November 23rd 2002 - 09:05:18 PM
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In Memory Of: Russell Ward
Your Name: Allison Wilkinson
Relationship: Sister
Memoriam: Will never understand why you are gone, yet I still try. They say the pain gets better with time I hope so here I stand almost exactly a year later and it hurts as bad as it did then. I hope you have found the peace and tranquility you needed but know that you are loved, missed and always remembered down here. I miss you little brother and love you.
Tuesday, November 19th 2002 - 12:53:21 PM
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In Memory Of: Patty Louise Hanton Montgomery
Your Name: Laurie Dunfield-Baker
Relationship: My mom
Memoriam: Mom, we didn't have much time together, but you left me with the good and the bad sides of our shared illness, bipolar disorder. I understand and it's okay. In March, 2001 you must have felt what those of us with this illness know so well. You are in my heart and always will be. Dad and Grandpa always tell me how much I remind them of you and that makes me feel good. Be at peace now, Mom. Love, your daughter, Laurie
Monday, November 18th 2002 - 08:40:32 PM
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In Memory Of: Dad
Your Name: Dan
Relationship: Son
Memoriam: You took your own life so many years ago, it seems like a dream. I was so young and didn't understand how you could have done such a thing, just as your father did before you. I now know that after being diagnosed with bipolar that you also had this disorder. You suffered through hell and no one knew or presumeably cared. But I did, you were my hero, my dad. I still miss you after all these years, and know that I will survive this hell, if for no one else, but your grandson who also has the disorder. We will continue and someday god willing we will all meet on those golden streets and finally rejoice!
Sunday, November 10th 2002 - 04:30:29 PM
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In Memory Of: Rusty
Your Name: kay
Relationship: cousin
Memoriam: his life was over due to the pain that he did not know to handle and could not ask 4 help
Sunday, November 10th 2002 - 04:29:16 AM
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In Memory Of: Freddie
Your Name: Tiffany
Relationship: Friends
Memoriam: He was a very nice guy, I did not know he thought of suicide at all, My mom is an EMT and she got a call and that cold dark night he shot hiself in the head on our church grounds. My mom now attempts this all the time, I do not know what to do. SO all you guys with lost loved ones and friends and familes who are suicidle it's not worth it it might not feel like it but at least God Loves you and I will pray for everyone of you everynight and if any of you need to talk E-mail me at cuddlesbaby16@yahoo.com feel free becasue I am only 12 I have thought of it but I will not because I have people who love me and I will understand your problems or at least try so feel free to talk to me
Tuesday, October 29th 2002 - 03:19:23 PM
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In Memory Of: Josh
Your Name: Connie and John
Relationship: Mom and Dad
Memoriam: Little boy lost, where have you gone?
What made you leave this way?
Didn't you know how much you were loved?
Would that have made you stay?

Little boy lost, alone in the night
How frightened you must have been!
So far from home, away from our hearts
With no one for a friend.

Little boy lost, winter is upon us
The days are long and cold.
The sun will never shine again
It seems the pain will never go.

Little boy lost, such dreams, grand dreams!
Grandkids and Christmas-time,
Your fair-haired wife, our home and friends
Or were these just dreams of mine?

Little boy lost, you were so very sick
We're sure you did not know
The illness that controlled your thoughts
Quckily took its toll.

Little boy lost, we know your pain
How you sufferred deep inside.
No matter how much we loved you
Your pain would not subside.

Little boy lost, we thank God now
Your agony's at an end.
As much as we love you, we let you go
It seems you've found a friend.

Little boy lost, cling to Him
Hold tight his nail-scarred hand
He's known your pain, He'll give you rest,
He's Jesus, Son of Man!

Little boy lost, goodbye my son
I'll be seeing you around.
When next we meet, on those Golden streets
I'll call you, "Little Boy Found!"

We love you, son, and you are always with us still.


Sunday, October 27th 2002 - 05:31:24 PM
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In Memory Of: Patrick Buchanon
Your Name: Felicia Jones
Relationship: Friends
Memoriam: Hello I no that there has been many people in this world who have had a loved one die or a friend a closet buddy even . I never thought that I would have known the pain you guys have had to go through untill it happen to me my friend Patrick Buchanon took his life on September 18th 2002. I had gone out with him (girlfriend) for about three months and then I moved about 30 minutes away from him but I still went to go see him and his older sister heidi and then one day I got a call from my best friend Gabby she was talking to me and then she said patrick is in a hospital Jhon Hospkins I was in shock I knew it was bad because he was military and they would have tookin him to a military hospital if it was'nt that bad SO I asked what was wrong and she told me that he was having head problems and that was all she knew because the school would not tell them what was wrong. So I prayed for him that night I thought it would blow over and I could go see him next week. well the next day I had just walked in the door with my sister from school and I heard the phone ring it was my friend chelsey I was like hey whats up havene't heard from you in a while have you heard about patrick is he doing better. She said patrick died this morning during brain surgery and I said I have to go. I was crying terribly and I was thinkig why would it have to happen to me. So then I kept trying to get a hold of his siter we also were very good friends. Finally I got a hold of her and I was talking to her asking her how she and her parents were doing they said great and then I asked her how he died she said you better sit down for this and I was thinking to myself this can't be good so I sat down and she said Patrick shot himself in the head he commited suicide I was in shock I almost just wanted to do it myself. But I can't I have no reason to. But I was thinking to myself for a twelve year olsd boy to do something like this is raeally sad and now I hope he restsin peace.

I just want everybody to know that if you have a loved one who has died you are not alone I pray for you guys every night and god bless you guys. I love you patrick and I wish I could still see you.
Sunday, October 27th 2002 - 03:33:31 PM
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In Memory Of: Chuckie
Your Name: Sussie
Memoriam: I know why you kept calling me that day. No one else understands why, but I really do. I pray that your soul is now at peace and that we meet again someday. I live the agony you lived daily. I know the battle you fought. I'm not angry. Remember Wish You Were Here? Every time I hear it, I know you are with me. Shine on babe.
Thursday, October 24th 2002 - 06:58:01 PM
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In Memory Of: Joey
Your Name: Mom
Relationship: Mother
Memoriam: You are free!
Thursday, October 24th 2002 - 02:38:58 PM
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In Memory Of: Eric Miller
Your Name: Sue
Relationship: friend
Memoriam: Blinding tears , I cannot see
feeling I've lost my way
feeling lost and frozen inside
how will I bear this day?

Hurting inside, so raw and strong
The pain and torment will subside I know.
Yet it will never be the same again
without the friend I loved so.
April 1967~August 2002...

He never let on his hurt and his pain
yet surely I should have known.
I would have gladly taken to bear
the load he carried alone.

Now it's too late
No time for goodbyes
Just memories and sadness
and tears in my eyes
Wednesday, October 23rd 2002 - 01:30:38 PM
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In Memory Of: Nick
Your Name: Michelle
Relationship: Friend
Memoriam: I love you so much. I miss you terribly and feel like I failed you. I wish there was something I could have done to help you. I pray you are at peace at last and no longer have to live the torment that your illness plagued on you. I will pray for your children. God bless you, for you were such a sweet and kind person. I'm glad I had the privilege of knowing wonderful you. In Memory of Your Death October 20, 2002.
Monday, October 21st 2002 - 12:39:00 PM
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In Memory Of: Donald Lee Peterson
Your Name: Janine C. Peterson
Relationship: Husband
Memoriam: This disease, the Bi-Polar disorder, caused my husband to take his own life by cyanide overdose. I also suffer from manic-depression, and his suicide, as devestating as it was, may have saved my life. I was very close to death when my husband killed himself. When I found his body, I contemplated killing myself when I found his body - obviously I didn't. Instead, I finally got serious about taking my medications as described, and NOT going off of them. As painful as the memory of his death will always be, I know that I am alive today because of what he did. If I can save someone else, then he will not have died in vain.
Born January 27, 1962, Died April 15, 1999. "May God Grant Him Peace."
Sunday, October 13th 2002 - 12:07:51 AM
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In Memory Of: Rob
Your Name: Hallie
Relationship: To My Friend:
Memoriam: I'm so sorry you're gone; I wish I could have stopped you. Know that I'll always love you.
Saturday, October 12th 2002 - 05:10:45 AM
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In Memory Of: Thomas Eugene Vann
Your Name: Krista Leigh
Relationship: daughter
Memoriam: I love my dad and now a part of me is dead. He had to survive from the moment he was born and really wanted to just live. It wasn't too much to ask, but he didn't know who to ask or how to ask. He thought he would get relief from death, but all it caused was agony for the people who loved him. I want everyone including him to know that he was a wonderful person. A good man. One of the best. I have yet to meet someone that possesses my father's empathy, his love, his unbelievable kindness toward people, people that others looked down on. I was blessed to be his daughter, just to know him. Please, if you, or someone you know wants to die, take them seriously, or get help! Keep talking until someone listens. Someone will listen. And know that your life is a precious gift and that no one cursed you with it, it is random, cruel, but random. And you aren't hopeless. And you are loved. I love you dad. You doubted it, but I never did.
Monday, October 7th 2002 - 11:40:35 PM
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In Memory Of: James Patrick Peek
Your Name: Anastasia
Relationship: First Cousin
Memoriam: James hung himself in his garage before the school day ended on November 16th, 1999. It shook the entire family, and I've never felt so much grief. We used to be close.
It's been three years now and I still think about him. I've been put on Zoloft and Lithium for my mood disorders; Bipolar disorder and manic depression. Everyone I think has yet to get over it, but I don't think they will. Every family reunion we sit at the table and light a candle for James, and pray. I still remember when I got the news. I remember the rush of overwhelming disbelief, and how I was completely numb for countless months after that. James was 17 years old.
Friday, October 4th 2002 - 02:40:36 PM
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In Memory Of: Jason Nixon.
Your Name: ALL THE LIVES YOU'VE TOUCHED
Memoriam: FLY, FLY LITTLE WING, FLY WHERE ONLY ANGELS SING.
YOU MAY NOW BE AT PEACE AND AT ONCE NOW
FINALLY REST, AND BE TRULY HAPPY!
YOU ARE LOVED AND MISSED BY ALL,
THOESE YOUR KIND SPIRIT TOUCHED!
Friday, October 4th 2002 - 06:19:25 AM
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In Memory Of: Jason Nixon.
Your Name: Misty.
Relationship: Friend.
Memoriam: Jay, it has been almost eight years since you left your
life of "HELL." I will never forget the day you commited
suicide, it was through our whole entire school. They had
counsallors from all over the place come in for us to talk
to. There were no signs that lead up to that day, you hid
behind that big beautiful smile, and your travelling
laughter. When we had been told, and heard of what you had
done, I knew you wanted out of this world more than even
how you expressed your death could even show. You didn't
hang yourself by jumping off a chair, you sat on your
knees with a rope around your neck, and forced yourself
forward from your closet clothes rod, till you fought that
last breath to leave this HELL of yours. You were always
so friendly, you would talk and be friends with anyone and
everyone, you saw someone down and lifted their spirits up
again, you were always doing something to put a smile on
the face of everyone around you, but the smiles were are
lost, fadded and gone when you left us Jay. I will never
forget your funeral, it looked as though they spray
painted your face and neck to match, it almost looked like
you were orange, with all the coloring they used, we could
all still as plain as day, see thoese dark marks around
your neck. Everyone was throwing smokes, c.d's, along with
other articles in your coffin while myself and afew others
put roses. You are a rose, beautiful, bright, make others
happy, a warm feeling, blossoming, standing tall. Jay as
much HELL as you were in, you still cared enough to write
afew last words, not explaining why, but that you love
still, I give you so much credit that you did not want
anyone of your friends to feel at blame, even with all you
were suffering with your pain.

You lived a life of HELL
You could no longer stay and dwell

You wanted to go back home
You no longer have to feel alone

You are now an angle soaring throgh the sky
It is so hard Jay not to cry

You will always be remembered, loved and thought of
You are now happy and at peace in heaven, you are
as beautiful and pure as a dove

** Be happy and you are now finally free**

****I LOVE YOU JAY, AND THANK-YOU FOR BEING YOU,
AND ALL THE GOOD TIMES WE SHARED, THANK-YOU
FOR BEING THEIR WHEN I WAS HAVING HARD TIMES, IF
ONLY I KNEW I WOULD HAVE HELPED YOU THROUGH
YOURS."****

JAY, NICE LEGS.... THANK-YOU!!!! :)

I LOVE YOU AND WILL REMEMBER YOU FOR ALL OF TIME,
I THANK GOD FOR HAVING YOU IN MY LIFE EVEN IF IT WAS
FOR A SHORT TIME, IT HAS BEEN AN HONOR.

LOVE YA BABE. SEE YA WHEN I GET THERE, I HOPE YOU ARE THERE WITH MY OTHER LOVED ONES TO MEET ME, UNTIL THEN YOU ARE IN MY HEART, THOUGHTS AND PRAYERS,
I LOOOOVVVVEEEE YYYYOOOOUUUU!!!!
ALWAYS FOREVER

COPYRIGHT 2002; MISTY. C-S.



Friday, October 4th 2002 - 06:02:37 AM
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In Memory Of: Paul Demski.
Your Name: Misty.
Relationship: Friend.
Memoriam: Paul, you're two year anniversary of your death has just past. No one knows why you took your life that day, only you. Paul I still remember the call I received that day, "Paul is dead!" "Paul was with his dad at the job sight painting inside this building downtown, this lady saw Paul move a crate to the window, than pulled the window out, and jumped out the window as his body hit the paevement." The lady who watched through her window called an ambulance as your body lay their limp and lifeless. The paramedics said you had numerous internal injuries, a broken jaw, cracked skull amungst other things. They kept trying to revive you all the way to the hospital, they told your dad you were not going to make it, and if you had you would have been a vegtable. Your autopsy showed you had nothing, not even caffine in your system. They tried washing your blood off of the paevement, but it was already stained in. Your funeral was beautiful, we all signed your coffin, your mom sang a beautiful song, friends said wonderful things about you, but to look at your body in that coffin is what will always be hard to forget, your head pushed in, your skin pulled back to sew behind your head, your jaw hanging out of place. It is painful Paul, but I truly beleive not as painful as what you were going through to take your own life, you did not die instantly, you suffered, your death was just another sign of your suffering that lead you to that day. You are now with God, you are safe, I pray you are happy and finally at peace. Paul you always have and always will be loved by me and so may others, you did what you had to do, I respect you, you will always be remembered for your smart remarks, your smile, kind, caring nature, your love for others, your laughter, partying and good times and so much more. Be happy Paul and keep on smiling and partying, until we meet again. Paul try not to give the other angles to hard of a time:) . I love you angel, you can now and for eternity rest and be happy inside and out.
Friday, October 4th 2002 - 04:48:46 AM
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In Memory Of: Wayne
Your Name: Katie
Relationship: niece
Memoriam: I understand why you did what you did.
I only wish I would have known. Known the lonliness you were feeling. I wish we could have helped. You were so far away. I understood then, that you were not to blame, and now I understand because I feel the same sadness and lonliness.
I miss you, I love you, watch over me...
Tuesday, October 1st 2002 - 09:16:00 PM
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In Memory Of: joaquin
Your Name: jessica
Relationship: cousin
Memoriam: u are someone that i will never, ever forget. Even though u were 23 i know that u went with the heart of a little boy. U were such a kind, and loving person I know that heaven is in luck with your presence, while we are left to grieve. Sometimes i wonder what u would look like today. it wasn't supposed to be like this. i thought we would have u around for longer. what hurts the most is that the last image i have of you in my head is you lying in your coffin with a bullet wound on the upper left side of your head. But i just focused on your angelic face. i hope u are happy now, released from your internal demons that u could never communicate to us. love u. u will never be forgotten.
Sunday, September 29th 2002 - 09:22:22 PM
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In Memory Of: Sean Paul Bocci Phelps
Your Name: Barbara Given
Relationship: aunt/mom2
Memoriam: SEAN


S is for your sensitivity

E is for the empathy you share with others

A is for academia, you are brilliant

N is for the most wonderful nephew anyone could
ask for.

I was with you from the beginning and held you close I was with you at the end and held you close. You are the love of my life. You will be proud of me as I carry on. A kiss blown to you......
Sunday, September 29th 2002 - 12:27:14 PM
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In Memory Of: Cookie
Your Name: Patricia
Relationship: Mom
Memoriam: Mom I could never understand the tremendous pain that you were in that would make you kill yourself. I was diagnosed with bipolar just like you. And now I do understand the pain. Sometimes I feel like the sadness is going to kill me.
But I have 3 beautiful children now, and I could never leave them the way you left me. I hope and pray that you finally found some peace from the pain you lived with everyday. God help us all
Friday, September 27th 2002 - 09:03:18 PM
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In Memory Of: My uncle bill
Your Name: geralyn
Relationship: neice
Memoriam: i never got to know you, i never got to feel the warmth of your love but may you rest in peace. GOD BLESS
Friday, September 27th 2002 - 12:31:45 PM
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In Memory Of: Randal Cooper Sr
Your Name: Robert &Charlene Cooper
Relationship: Son
Memoriam: Randy you went to heaven to be with the Lord you was with Dad & I for 32 yrs but that was not long enough. We wish you was here for another 32 yrs your time was not up yet. Someday Dad and I will join you but now is not the time. I know you are not alone you have your grandparents there,but it is not the same Your Dad & I never wanted you to be alone without us.You are sadly missed by your brothers,sisters and all your neices and nephews and your children and Dad & Mom Love you for all eternity
Thursday, September 26th 2002 - 01:30:56 AM
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In Memory Of: Kenneth W. Lentz
Your Name: Heather Lentz
Relationship: Daughter
Memoriam: Daddy i just wanted to say that i love you. You mean the world to me. Even though i never got to fully know you the way a daughter should know her father, and even though you couldnt be there for mewhie i am growing up, i feel that you are above watching over me. It been almost eleven years since you took your own life on my birthday. Every year around this time is going to be hard for me. I believe yo did te right thing as far as making yourself feel better. If you are happy with the way your lifeturned out, then am happy for you. But daddy, i miss you more than words can say. Growing up without calling a man daddy has been unbelievable hard for me. I believe you lived a great life and you should have no regrets. I just wanted to say that i love you and i understand where you were coming from. I hope you are happy and wanted where you are. I also hope those angels are taking good care of you.
Wednesday, September 25th 2002 - 06:55:19 PM
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In Memory Of: Bradly Moore
Your Name: Joshua Craver
Relationship: Best Friend
Memoriam: MAY ANGLES LEAD YOU IN!
Sunday, September 22nd 2002 - 10:45:48 PM
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In Memory Of: Terry Goode
Your Name: Susan Goode Woods
Relationship: Brother
Memoriam: Terry, I miss and love you so much. Your laughter and all the fun times we use to have. While your death brought on such anguish it also opened several doors. As a family we're much closer, we're all aware of a disease that had never been spoken of before, and I was able to get treatment for Bipolar II before it was too late. You will always be in my mind.
Sunday, September 22nd 2002 - 10:45:29 PM
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In Memory Of: Debra Zensco
Your Name: Danii Lee Collins
Relationship: Student
Memoriam: Mrs. Zensco spent all her time worrying about us and the animals of the world we didn't even see her suicide coming. Why she did this we will neve know or understand! She use to tell us you are weak if you try to kill your self and i will no longer teach you if you try you are worth more than that. If this is true why was it ok for you to die and not any of us??? - WHY?
Wednesday, September 18th 2002 - 12:37:29 AM
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In Memory Of: Gary Riddle
Your Name: Danielle
Relationship: Neice
Memoriam: I didn't know you well But I know when you died you took the best of your brother with you. You died knowing the answers to the secrets i need to know. I will miss you! i was only 2 when you died and 20 years later i see the pain that every one is sill in. But i think we will see you again and be able to find out why. My mom misses you so does Dad every April he has a hard time dealing with the fact you are gone. Have a peace full rest-Danielle
Wednesday, September 18th 2002 - 12:34:46 AM
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In Memory Of: Thomas John Callin
Your Name: Cheryl Mayumi Campa (Callin)
Relationship: Sister
Memoriam: This is in Loving Memory of My Baby Bro Thomas John Callin...who took his life on September 6, 2002. May God grant you the Serenity and the Peace that you so desparatly need. I know that you are now safe in His arms.
Monday, September 16th 2002 - 04:51:41 PM
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In Memory Of: Diana Nicole Lambert
Your Name: Jameshia Hightoewr
Relationship: Friend
Memoriam: Dear Diana, I am going to miss you.
I hope you are in a better place right now and just remember. I LOVE YOU.....
Friday, September 13th 2002 - 08:29:34 AM
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In Memory Of: Nathan
Your Name: Katie
Relationship: Friend
Memoriam: Hey Nathy Babes!

We had that hueg party like you wanted us to... Don't worry I made sure that it was big, loud and colourful, juz the way you are and juz they way you asked it to be.

I miss you heapz and so does everyone else, sometimes I wonder why, but I know that it was the for the best. You never gave up... NEVER EVER... You lived life as if each day was your last and you danced like I never saw anyone dace before... You never regretted anything, and I know in my heart that as painful as your death was to all of us, it was a relief for you.

May you continue to dance, live life on the edge, never regret a moment and have many a huge partie upstairs and NEVER EVER GIVE UP because you are so bueatiful and loved by many!

Love you heaps Nathy babes and may sun shine down cauze I wanna another big party juz for you!
Saturday, August 31st 2002 - 04:57:12 AM
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In Memory Of: Nikki
Your Name: Donald
Memoriam: Miss you.
Sunday, August 25th 2002 - 08:00:55 AM
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In Memory Of: Mari Lynn
Your Name: Maggie
Relationship: friend
Memoriam: I just wish I could say I'm sorry...
Saturday, August 24th 2002 - 07:46:20 PM
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In Memory Of: Chris Anderson
Your Name: Brien
Relationship: cousin
Memoriam: I think of you so often and miss you so much. No one told me about your depression and schizophrenia, but when Dad called to tell me your father had just called....somehow I knew what he was going to say.

Although I selfishly miss you I cannot help but be thankful you are not suffering the constant hell you were facing. Millions of times I have been jealous it was not me, but somehow made it through each day. If not for my children I would be with you now.

Love and Go In Peace! Brien
Friday, August 23rd 2002 - 11:30:37 PM
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In Memory Of: Kevin Baker
Your Name: Tanya Diedolf
Relationship: Cousin
Memoriam: I am sorry for all that you suffered Kevin, nobody shuld have to go through what you did so I do unerstand but you are missed daily by your family. Did you know a tree was planted in your honor...I hear it is beautiful as you were.
Monday, August 19th 2002 - 11:54:11 AM
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In Memory Of: Sonia Bullington Wallaston
Your Name: Tanya Diedolf
Relationship: Mother
Memoriam: I too share the depths of your mental illness Mom along with your depression , but I wish you had gotten the help you needed. But you are loved today and always.
Monday, August 19th 2002 - 11:51:22 AM
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In Memory Of: Sonny Bullington
Your Name: Tanya DIedolf
Relationship: Father
Memoriam: Daddy, you had so much to live for though I know your life without Eric was never the same, you will be sorely missed. Knowing that you and Eric are together now is of comfort to me. But I know all your patients and poeple in your life will never forget you as will I. I loved you Daddy with all my heart.
Monday, August 19th 2002 - 11:49:04 AM
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In Memory Of: Sonny Bullington
Your Name: Tanya DIedolf
Relationship: Father
Monday, August 19th 2002 - 11:44:23 AM
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In Memory Of: Eric Bullington
Your Name: Tanya Diedolf
Relationship: Brother
Memoriam: You were my heart , my life and my soul Eric and there is not a day that goes by that I don't think of you. I love you with all my being my dear brother. Thank you for all your have given me in life , you shall never be forgotten.

Monday, August 19th 2002 - 11:41:42 AM
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In Memory Of: Dr. Daniel W. Hubbard
Your Name: Daniel S. Hubbard
Relationship: Father
Memoriam: My father; a man that some how towards
the end became to much of a man.

I love and miss you dad. Oct. 17, 1982.
A day for me that has become as close as
a day in hell could ever be.

I forgive you and love you as you are in
God's hands now. I look foward towards the
moment that I will see you again. And during
that moment, I hope to understand why.

Your Loving Son; Daniel
Monday, August 19th 2002 - 04:45:54 AM
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In Memory Of: Robin
Your Name: Wendie
Relationship: cousin
Memoriam: not sure why - but we all love you. and there will be a hole in a heart forever. we will all miss you - why?
Thursday, August 15th 2002 - 07:58:33 PM
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In Memory Of: Tammy Shaw
Your Name: Becky Wright
Relationship: Sister
Memoriam: To my beloved sister and best friend. You well be forever missed. I love you so much and my heart still cries for you
Friday, August 9th 2002 - 04:35:41 PM

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