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Q: I Seem to Dissociate
Dr. Phelps,
I am a young woman who was diagnosed with Bipolar Disorder about two years ago.
I have been relatively stable with a combination of Celexa (30mg) and Neurontin
(900mg). I have been on a great many medications including Wellbutrin, Prozac,
Clonidine, Risperdal, and Xanax. As you can probably guess, I have had a great
many diagnoses and have really only believed BP.
Here is my question. Though I have been relatively stable, with only a few
incidences of hypomania, I continue to show a syptom that has puzzled my doctor.
Without regard to mood, I seem to dissociate and feel almost "drunk."
It can be extremely severe, and occurs in a variety of situations. My thinking
is distorted, and I sometimes act silly--things are funny, ideas flash in my
mind and I act without reserve. What disturbs me is the fact that they seem to
be apart from BP, and that while they are happening (usually last a few hours,
or until my husband can get ahold of me and get me to bed), I seem to be fully
aware that something is amiss.
(By the way, thoughts of previous trauma as a trigger have not been found to be
applicable to me.) Do you have any thoughts or suggestions?
Dear Ruby --
Until proven otherwise I would interpret those "blips" as "hypomanic
phases". See the letter from this month to Ms. I' who has similar
"blips" lasting 6 hours at most (click
here). If these are indeed hypomanic phases, then
obviously you're "cycling". It sounds like you're getting pretty
good symptom control otherwise, so you should talk with your doc' about my
interpretation and see if she/he thinks there's enough to it to change your
treatment (it sounds like these episodes carry some risk to you through the
"act without reserve" part, which of course has long been recognized
as a manic symptom, though usually much longer in duration than yours).
You were right to "rule out trauma" as a potential explanation, as
with the seemingly "dissociated" state that would be strongly worth
considering but not a for sure thing by any matter of means. Good luck
figuring this out.
Dr. Phelps
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