am 38 years old and have 4 children and I also suffer from Bipolar.
Bipolar for me has been a crippling disorder that has sometimes had the
better of me. My mood swings are frequent. Lately I have been rapid
cycling all over the place. This has been extremely hard for my family.
My husband and I live separately but he is still a huge support for me.
My children know about my disorder but still sometimes have a hard time
with it as things are constantly changing for them depending on my mood of
the hour or day.
I see a
psychologist once a week and am on an anti psychotic drug called
alanzapine. I am not however psychotic. This seems to be helping with
sleeping at nights. I will be going of them soon and trying a drug free
therapy. I have been on so many pills over the years, none of them really
work for me anymore.
I was only
diagnoses say 7 years ago, but have suffered from this all my life. I
remember when I was a teenager, trying to commit suicide all the time and
being very emotionally upset for lots of different reasons. One main one
being that my both parents were alcoholics.
I have been
hospitalized several times for breakdowns. However now I have joined a
bipolar group and this seems to be of great value to me as I now realize I
am not alone with this. We discuss symptoms and relate to each otherís
stories as well as give some sound advice to how we all deal with our
illness. I have met many people there like myself who struggle day to day
with their illness. We understand each other and can support each other
through the bad days.
I will be starting
a university course on line soon and then hopefully go to the local
university next year to study Psychology. I am really looking forward to
this, as it not only will be therapeutic for me but also will help me
focas on a goal that interests me.