Hi. My name is Suzy. I am 18 years old. I saw your website,
and read some of the stories, and I felt that if people like
me read these stories and realized how bad cutting really is
for you, then it might help someone to either never start,
or to go for help early. I know reading it really did open
my eyes a little.
cutting in 8th grade. I used to just take tiny little pins
and scratch myself, nothing to ever draw blood. Just kind of
to relieve a little stress. Then things started to get worse
Ė more stressful - so I started to cut my wrist, all up and
down my wrist. I attempted to hide it, but my mom found out
somehow and put me in therapy.
cutting my wrist for a while and started cutting my leg,
deep painful cuts, a lot worse than I did on my arm, even
though those were pretty bad. I have some nasty scars
from that. My leg seemed like a good idea, until I really
become a self-mutilator, to where the blood would drip down
my leg and just not stop.
I wrote words like DIE or LIES or ex boyfriends names. I
wrote them deep, they kind of look like scar tattoos now. I
stopped for a really long time after I tried to kill myself.
I took a bunch of pills and my ex boyfriend called my mom
and they rushed me to the hospital. I was on strict lock
down and had major check ups because they were trying to
send me to an institution.
started to get a little better and I cut my leg less and
less, they just became tiny nicks, or x's, nothing that
anyone would notice, and I hid them well. A few months went
by and I had not cut. Recently I started to cut again, worse
this time. I went back to the wrist and became so sneaky at
it. I wrap my wrist up like when you get blood taken so all
the blood concentrates on one place, put a doctors glove
on, and cut till it bubbles and bleeds all over.
can relieve me like cutting can, its like a drug, but
better. Iíve become so physically and mentally out of
control it hurts. I want to tell someone, but im scared. Im
scared that one of these days Iíll go too deep and I wont
get to live my life. I donít do it to kill myself; I donít
know why sometimes - I just need to do it.
someone would help me stop, itís not worth it and I know it,
but itís so hard. Get help as soon as you can, Iíve been
cutting for 5 years, the longer you do it, the harder it is
Please put this on your website for allot he people that
need help out there. Please let me know if it goes on your
website. You can put my e-mail address so people can talk to
me I donít mind being contacted, Iíd rather help people then
let them go through what I have.